*Caution, you will either be crying from laughing, or you may be touched, either way, Caution! * This is my outlet for coping with losing my son to SIDS "Holden you are missed more and more each day"
Holden Adym Jonathan
One month
It's been 1 month since my nightmare. There are days that seem easy, and then BAM! i'm hit with a brick wall and get set back. I can not believe that it's been a month. Holden would have been 2 months old yesterday..... and that was hard. I look at pictures and wonder what features have changed, or how big he's gotten, or what new thing has he learned to do. I miss him so much, I can't believe that my heartaches just to hold him again.
What a year....
Well it's been quite awhile since i've even thought about writing.... where to begin.
Well before I was talking about wanting to get pregnant, but my husband was living in another state. Well after he had finally came back home, and we discussed the whole topic about starting our family.
Well by the end of October, we were expecting! Yep took us no time to get pregnant! :)
So through out the next 9 months, we never wanted to find out what we were having, I just wanted a heathly baby.
Well July 27th, 2010 our child was born - Holden Adym Jonathan born at 3:07 a.m. Weight: 7lbs 7oz Length: 19 3/4" . This boy's luckey number is #7!!!
The past month was the greatest.
Now this is very difficult for me to write, and also say, but on August 28th, 2010 we lost our son. My heart just aches, and hurts everyday since that morning that my husband found him in his crib. I feel like i'm living a nightmare and can't wake up. All I want is to hold my child and hear him cry 1 more time.
Well before I was talking about wanting to get pregnant, but my husband was living in another state. Well after he had finally came back home, and we discussed the whole topic about starting our family.
Well by the end of October, we were expecting! Yep took us no time to get pregnant! :)
So through out the next 9 months, we never wanted to find out what we were having, I just wanted a heathly baby.
Well July 27th, 2010 our child was born - Holden Adym Jonathan born at 3:07 a.m. Weight: 7lbs 7oz Length: 19 3/4" . This boy's luckey number is #7!!!
The past month was the greatest.
Now this is very difficult for me to write, and also say, but on August 28th, 2010 we lost our son. My heart just aches, and hurts everyday since that morning that my husband found him in his crib. I feel like i'm living a nightmare and can't wake up. All I want is to hold my child and hear him cry 1 more time.
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