I don't know, I just don't know what direction my life is heading, and I just have the need to do something. I come home everyday from work, and just sit..... sit and do nothing, but think and wonder what life would be like. What would my life truely be like with a child here to take care of. Someone who needed me at every second of their lives?
I just feel that there is something out there that I should be pouring myself into. Wether it's scrapbooking Holden's book, or working on other cross-stich projects, or hell even trying to get into more better shape. But all I feel is the need to just sit, sit and reflect, but I feel that it's pulling me down into a funk, and with it being winter I think that's the worst for me.
Holden Adym Jonathan
2 comments:
Big hugs and love for you sweetie. I hope that as the days get longer and warmer they begin to bring you more sunshine. I hope that becoming parents for the second time happens just as soon as you are ready, and that the Lord holds you tightly in his arms as you hold onto the hope through pregnancy, birth, and the first years that everything will be fine and the past will not reinvent itself.
I love you girl. Always thinking of you.
Thanks Sweetie.... someday soo it will happen, I've just got to be patient, and not rush things. I've got to remember that it's not in my time that things are done, it's in God's time!
Hugs to you too!!!
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